Letters never mailed...

[Nikko]

Okay this is really almost a game, it's your chance to let off some steam or tell your true feelings. I noticed in the other threads we right poems like letters, this it like that but it doesn't have to be a poem or even make any sense to any of us. I'll start and maybe you'll catch the drift.

Dear K,

Some day I'll understand why you like me, or even put up with me. I think some days I'm a pain and I whine just a little too much. Other I'm annoying and tend to say the wrong things. Some I'm not even all here it seems, I phase in and out and you may feel that I'm farther away then normal. You still love me and talk to me.
I'm sure I can list a few things I may do that I think bother you, but when asked you tell me 'not at all'. I don't always understand, but I think I can read what your feeling and thinking more then you know or that I let on to. And somedays I'm wrong on that too.
But I wonder if you know that you make me smile without being around. I wonder if you know that someday's your more important then my family or friends. I wonder if you truely know how much it means some days that your there when it feels like no one else is. And I wonder if you'll ever really find out that these are the things I think.

Love, B

Okay is anyone confused? This was a game we played in another forum and a creative writting warm up we would do in english. It's fairly simple and just like the title, it's a letter never sent. You can go the other direction of the one I wrote and really tell someone how you feel and the things that bug you, you can tell a friend that they have this annoying habbit that makes you want to hit them some days or you can tell your boss how you really feel about the way they treat you.

It's all in fun, and I only ask that if we get mad that we try to censure it just a little. While we may really be very mad, we may not want to offend anyone here. Keep in mind the wonderful edit feature if you think you may after you read what you posted.

[Kamikaze_Jen]

Hmm... I sort of see where this is going to, may I have a try? Except I may use explict words but i'll try to cut the crude words short (this is to a friend who is really pissing meh off right now)... :p

Dear Sarah,
It hasn't been the best times when I see you or when you appear. Ok, let me say the truth, everytime I see you I just want to choke you and rip out your heart and guts and drown you and let Tyler see your decaputated lifeless body. You see, you've made my life worse then it was. You took my boyfriend, you're more beautiful then me and you think you have the worst life anyone could have.
WELL GUESS WHAT?!
Try living with your father dead 6 feet under and you can't see his grave again because you had to move to a mormon state and your mom gets married to a rude stepfather and a boy finally knows who you really are and he breaks your heart in front of the girl he's going to replace because she's more beautiful!
Your darn lucky you even still have a father and to know that he loves you. I don't even know if my father loves me anymore, even if he is dead or not. And your stepdad loves you not like my stepdad who only married my mom for her money. Tyler likes you more then me and I think your a *censored* who just wants attention!!!!
I would kill you if I had the chance. I would beat you up with my bare hands if I was strong enough. I would kill Tyler to see you cry and shoot your father. That's right. I hope this tells you how much I hate you. And, I know, you keep saying nobody likes you, well it's the truth, so get over it. Nobody does.
Hatefully, J.

.............

:o

I hope I got the knack of this right, heheh. Oh man, that was hateful... but I just had to let it out.
- Jen

[dessertxfirst]

I think I understand the concept of this lil game....um....here it goes:

Dear Thaer (yes this is a name)

Ever since I met you I have fallen more in love with you each day and when you asked me out I felt so happy. But it has been 3 weeks since we last broke up and you won't tell me what was wrong. I would like to go out with you again if its possible but if you cannot see me in that way again then thats understandable. But please I would like an answer. I will always be here for you as a friend, and more. But please let me understand, otherwise I will not be able to fix it. I love you

---Yesenia :(

[Nikko]

Everyone seems to have the hang of it. So does anyone else want to take a stab at it?

[Bangles-hime]

Ooo, I wrote a really convoluted, angry letter to my English teacher today. I'll type it up later, maybe. ^^

[Nikko]

Aww, you should have posted the letter. And people, if you really have to curse I ask you put a * in for one letter. My computer will block pages with cursing at school and it makes it hard to check the thread. Thank you.

[Kamikaze_Jen]

Aww, you should have posted the letter. And people, if you really have to curse I ask you put a * in for one letter. My computer will block pages with cursing at school and it makes it hard to check the thread. Thank you.

Well said! Yet I think I'm the one who has to follow this rule...
*Sorry*
Well Since I'm posting here I think I should make another one! For my ex boyfriend who's a total jerk-dork-loser! (Keeping it clean this time)

Dear Tyler...
Sometimes, when you ingur yourself, you seem to cry over the pain and wait for the damage to heal on your fragile skin, but with a little medicine and bandages, it will make the process faster to heal yourself. Doesn't this statement remind of something? Hmmm, is the word your looking for
LOVE? Of course. What else could it be?
Now, I was one of the victims of the "Date and Dump" situation, crying over you in pain and suffering and depression swings, but the bandage has come off and now I'm ready to move on with life. I made a huge mistake in the first place, dating at a young age, but also making the wrong decision by giving in and thinking it was true love (A longshot from it!) I thought I saw the real you but the real you isn't what I thought you were.
You were nice before, funny, clumsy and caring.
Now your just a big oaf who messes with his hair too much and thinks he's hot.
SURE YOU ARE! *rolling eyes*
Look, here's what I' trying to say, you haven't weighed me down, and I'm moving on with life. Stop tryng to make me feel bad and make me feel like your the only one for me because YOUR NOT. Also, you need to change. Stop dating girls! Your too young! Think about others! Be nice for once! And for our sake, how about you just stop saying your hot.
Bceause it's not really....erm....true.
While my inguries are healed, it seems yours are going deeper everyday, hiding who you really are and they can't heal until you accept your not being yourself and change.
Get it?
Good. -J

See! I can show hate and be clean! Like a maid! lol.
-Jen

[Mimi-chan]

Dear world of art,
I try and try so hard but I never seem to be good enough. Its like you don't even notice me in the first place. While other are applauded for their works, you seem to just disregarded and throw mine away. Is there something wrong in the way I draw? I know I'm not perfect but it would feel good just once to be noticed, to be respected, to even be admired for the one thing I love to do. I want to be the one whose art makes people excited to try drawing on their own. I want to be the one whose art is not only looked at but taken in and appreiated. I want to be able to actually look at my work and with confidence say I did that myself. This may all seem unlikely to you right now but it wont stay that way. So, World of Art, I wont stop until you do notice me, until I am good enough, until I'm applauded for. No matter how many time you try to stop me, I'll come back. For one day you'll love me! I'm sure of it!

Sincerly Mimi.


Woah.....This letter totally changed from feeling totally sorry for myself at the beginning to Wanting to change.....It sort of doesn't even seem like the words came from me :o

[sadly]

Dear world of art,
I try and try so hard but I never seem to be good enough. Its like you don't even notice me in the first place. While other are applauded for their works, you seem to just disregarded and throw mine away. Is there something wrong in the way I draw? I know I'm not perfect but it would feel good just once to be noticed, to be respected, to even be admired for the one thing I love to do. I want to be the one whose art makes people excited to try drawing on their own. I want to be the one whose art is not only looked at but taken in and appreiated. I want to be able to actually look at my work and with confidence say I did that myself. This may all seem unlikely to you right now but it wont stay that way. So, World of Art, I wont stop until you do notice me, until I am good enough, until I'm applauded for. No matter how many time you try to stop me, I'll come back. For one day you'll love me! I'm sure of it!

Sincerly Mimi.


Woah.....This letter totally changed from feeling totally sorry for myself at the beginning to Wanting to change.....It sort of doesn't even seem like the words came from me :o


I love your letter! I feel the same towards the art world!

[Mimi-chan]

I love your letter! I feel the same towards the art world!
Thanks ^^ Yeppers, the art world can be a very challenging place at times :D

[Bangles-hime]

Dear J:

Where are you?

No, I know you live a mile and a half away, and that you're probably in your room right now, reading some shitty fantasy novel. That isn't what I'm talking about.

I mean... where were you? I kind of needed you tonight. You were right there, right up until I needed you, and then you kind of melted away. I came, you know, to our little sister's middle school play. I came to help you to do makeup for them, because you've been skipping practice and I've missed you. It was fun... learning how to put eyeliner on other people, seeing the teachers we used to be so frightened of. We laughed quite a bit, as I recall.

And then before the curtain rose we went to find our seats and there was my father's girlfriend, who came to see my sister and whose visit wasn't announced before by my father. Yeah, I have to say that I was a little shell-shocked, and I bolted out of there. You gave me a little chocolate and patted my shoulder. Then you bolted.

And when I couldn't deal with them at different times of the evening, where were you? When I had to stand smilingly there as he introduced her to people, where were you?

You were across the room, chatting with E about that hot senior in my fencing squad. You saw me, I know. I waved to you a couple times. You could see my face, and you knew I didn't feel right and I needed a rescue. Did you rescue me?

NO. You didn't. You only love me when I'm helping you tape up your knees, you hypochondriac. You only need me when I'm being sympathetic about your obnoxiously advertised paganism or your dumb ex-boyfriend or your parents. You only want me when I'm listening to you moon over that boy (who I also like, as you know).

When I need your ears because I have actual problems-- deaths in the family and so forth-- you disappear. Am I really that boring?

No. You're just a very self-centered teenager. I know I am too, but you're just... you don't care at all about me when I talk about things other than boys. You're interested in yourself and your romantic prospects. I'm sorry that you can't dignify other subjects with your attention.

Love,
Sarah.

[sukiyume]

Wow this is good... Let me do one...



Dear: N.G.11 (N-something is her name and her grade is 11)

OK, man WTF? You're a few months older than me but I would swear you were 5 years younger. Look, grow the heck up. Your family won't take you to Tokyo, your mom told you that when you were younger to make you happy is all or maybe when you guys had more money but c'mon girl you don't whine about that stuff... You pray she says yes and you don't beg for it and if that day by some miracle comes you're happy not like 'oh, I so expected that'. You also do not tell everyone within ear shot and I mean within BLOODY EARSHOT WITH YOUR LOUD VOICE YOU USE TO DROWN EVERYONE OUT AND GIVE ME A BLOODY HEADACHE about this f'in trip that your family so-called promised to take you this summer. It's is march! They would of planned this for years and you and your family would of taken a class or 2 in Japanese and Cultural classes to prepare in the immersion into another land AND NO WATCHING ANIME DOSE NOT MAKE YOU LEARN OF IT PERFECTLY EITHER! It cost THOURSLANDS of dollars to go and don't expect them to either. While people like me are fearful of affording college your boostering money you don't got around and saying you going to Japan. Look, you're a little girl and get it though your non-existent brain it won't happen.
I'm also sick of you saying you sing great and act great and are just so bloody great! You're not, OK? We live in FARMINGVILLE/HOLDBROOK NEW YORK IN LONG ISLAND! WE ARE NOT RICH NOR ARE WE POOR! We are middle class kids and we are not special in anything. Stop acting like you're some gift from god when you're not, OK? You're singing is annoying because you love to drown everyone else out and lemme tell you that gets old real quick. You're so sheltered it p*sses me off. Wake up and realise the world is cold, the world don't care and Broadway ain't waiting for you either. So you were in some school plays so what if our school is Sachem so there like 2500 kids in there or maybe even 3k so it's kind of hard.... it's still f'in high school it's not Julliard. You don't even want to go to Julliard either, do you not realize five towns college is a local college and its small and private so it's expensive and it sure as heck ain't famous either. May even be a for-profit college like the Art Institutes who just want you for the $$$$. I hope you realise this one day...
You're such a lil girl. You go with the crowd and don't know the value of a dollar. 75$ for a play trip is a lot and you should be polite w/asking if people can go... you shouldn't just expect 75$ to fall from the sky. You need to understand you gotta work and you gotta try hard... Your dream is a miracle like is mine to become a History Professor but you're going no where if you don't work hard. My friend Rachel she a hard worker. I've know her since Middle School and boy that girl done a lot. she on honor roll... all AP classes...dose plays out side of school at gateway playhouse... in drama and on and on volunteer on and on... and she wants to be a JOURNALIST! She doesnt even want your dream but sure as heck the people at Broadway would pick her over you any day by looking at the work she done.
You need to appreciate stuff more and realise this. I hope you do. Also I REFUSE TO GO ON WITH YOU AND YOUR LITTLE GROUP FOR MUTI CULTURAL SHOW! CHINESE MADRIAN DRESSES ARE FROM CHINA! Least I'm 90% sure that's where they are founded.. Vivian can help me there since she knows this stuff :) but anyhow... OK if they're from CHINA YOU DO NOT USE THEM FOR THE JAPANESE PART OF THE FAISHION SHOW! I am doing modern JP Fashion with my Sweet Lolita outfit and I will be as god dang self-centered as Momoko and say I am not going to be brought down by your ignorance. OK waite I looked it up Medina dress are from Manchuria a old country in china... OK SO THIS IS NOT JAPAN AT ALL JUST BECAUSE PEOPLE IN ASIA WEARS IT DON:T MEAN ITS F'IN GOING TO WORK FOR JAPAN THAT LIKE SAYING SINCE EVERYONE WEARS BLUE JEANS AND NIKI STUFF WE CAN WEAR THAT TO REPERSENT LIUTRIANIA! (small country near Russia...Russia enjoys taking it over... I'm 1/8 Liotironina) you're such a little girl... I'm nice to you and don't say this because I'm trying to be a nice senior and I sometimes try to politely say how going to Tokyo is very difficult and don't expect that much...but you don't even listen...
I'm going to go see my mommy...she be home soon... I love my mommy... my mommy should yell at you too and make you learn how it is to work hard. You don't get thing from the sky you gotta work for them! I saved up for the stuff I love and I wanted and so should you! SELFISH LITTLE GIRL!! I DO NOT CARE IF THIS IS ONE SIDED OR I:M BEING THE MEAN ONE ANYMORE!!!

-rayne...

PS.... I feel so much better now





thanks guys.. you don't got to read that but that been on my chest for a while and thank you wikipedia for teaching me about old Chinese and Manchuria dresses

[Bangles-hime]

Dear J:

You got yourself into this mess because you never learn from your mistakes.

This isn't my fault. I shouldn't cry over your hyperdramatic problems, but tonight, I did cry. But it wasn't for you. It wasn't because I don't want to see you hurt. It was because I don't want to see him hurt.

If you don't stop jerking him around, it won't matter to me whether we've been close friends since age eleven. If you don't stop jerking him around, you'll hurt both him and your boyfriend even more. If you don't stop jerking him around, he may stop liking you. (I don't know why he likes you still, actually. I wouldn't.)

I can't stand to watch him be upset. If you don't stop jerking him around, I swear I'll kill you.

Love,
S.

[sukiyume]

(I want to rant and got no one to here me so I'm doing this, you don't have to read it.. proably make your day better if you don't lol it's just for me)

that felt nice

yeah i c/ped it and put it private in my live journal but i feel better now :D

[gluegungeisha]

Dear J,

I am so over you.

You exploited my trust and drained me of just about everything I had, but you didn't take my pride. I suppose you expected me to be waiting for you when you decided that you really wanted me over all those other girls, that the grass really wasn't greener on the other side. Well, I'm sorry, but I'm worth more than that. You are a womanizer, and I hope that all those other girls you screwed over learn how valuable they really are someday...they don't deserve this either.

I showed you nothing but love and compassion for two and a half years -- stop victimizing yourself. Acting pathetic to my face while juggling more women in the background is not going to do it for me this time. You manipulate people through weakness because that's all you have.

I hope you have at least learned a lesson. This is just a slap in the face.

Kaeti

[Everlasting Blossom]

Dearest penpal,

A LONG time ago I used to see this boy. We were on and off for about six years. He was a complete ass! Like once, when we were just starting to get back together he went off and took some girl to her prom. (Keep in mind that at this point we were both a few years out of high school...) Anyhow,....after the last time we broke up I decided to keep a distance. We would chit-chat every rare once in a while. Over the years he had been fired from about 4 jobs, had cashed out his 401k, had his jeep reposessed, gotten a DUI, and managed to get himself engaged to a girl he wasn’t really too into! I loved it! I didn’t have to do anything to get back at him for all of the pain he had put me through, because he was beating me to the punch. He he he. ANYHOW... Eairlier this month I got an email from him...


Hey you,
Yay! My cell is back on again. Broke up with my girlfriend too. lol Oh well. I'm a lot better off. Anyway, I'm going to school to be an electrician. Someone has to do it right? I've been learning a lot and I'll definitely do well I think. Anyway, I should probably start penpaling you. If I can ever get the time to actually sit down and right a letter. It's so much faster for me to type what I'm thinking about. Oh well, school should be done by the end of the month so maybe I can change that.
I'll catch ya later.
HIM


Okay. Anyone else smell something fishy? He he he! SERIOUSLY! I didn’t respond to the letter, but as I had never gotten a new cell phone or a new number he still had my info, and called me. He started out chatting like you normaly would with someone you had been friends with for a while, then it turned into “are you looking to settle down?” “You have always been so beautiful.”“are you happy in your relationship?” It took me a while to gently inform him that I was in NO WAY interested with him, but I would like to remain friends with him....after he got it through his thick skull that I was not on the market for him he decided to drop the bomb that his ex had cheated on him and possibly given him Hepititis C. HOLY FUCK! And what? If I did want to be with him, what, would he have forgotten to tell me the part where he has Hep C? WHAT THE FUCK? Again proving what a nice guy he is. Oh yeah! * rolls eyes* But I do want to stay friends with him if only to watch his life go up in flames. He he he. Seriously! He’s almost 30 and still lives with mommy and daddy. He’s never even TRIED to move out! He’s the sterieotypical looser that your mother warned you about. OH! He’s also an alocoholic. Nice mix, huh? I didn’t want my man to know about this because, well, why bother him? I’m not going anywhere? Why would I trade in a nice boy who gives me anything I want, at any time I want, for this jerk? Nah, I’m not gonna upset him that way. Also he showed me a picture of his ex. My thoughts are: .....HOLY CRAP! EVEN BEING FAT I AM A MILLION TIMES HOTTER THAN THAT CHICK!!!! HA HA HA HA..... Dude....Seriously? THAT was the best he could do!?!?!?! Wow!

Anyhow, today, for some odd reason I decided to talk to him. Durring the conversation I tried to explain to him all the different types of characters in japanese writing, and why they were different. He simply told me "you always study the weirdest stuff." EXCUSE THE FUCK OUTTA ME FORE BEING INTERESTED IN SOMETHING OTHER THAN BEER AND SEX! ARGH! And he still can't give a straight answer to a question. He always has to dance around it. The only reason he is in my life in the first place is because he was nice to me when my father died, and I transfixed all of my need for male affection to him. I don't know. I have friends, like you. Why do I need his drama anymore? Do you think it is wrong for me to hang on to see what else happens?

Write back soon.

[gluegungeisha]

Dearest penpal,

A LONG time ago I used to see this boy. We were on and off for about six years. He was a complete ass! Like once, when we were just starting to get back together he went off and took some girl to her prom. (Keep in mind that at this point we were both a few years out of high school...) Anyhow,....after the last time we broke up I decided to keep a distance. We would chit-chat every rare once in a while. Over the years he had been fired from about 4 jobs, had cashed out his 401k, had his jeep reposessed, gotten a DUI, and managed to get himself engaged to a girl he wasn’t really too into! I loved it! I didn’t have to do anything to get back at him for all of the pain he had put me through, because he was beating me to the punch. He he he. ANYHOW... Eairlier this month I got an email from him...


Hey you,
Yay! My cell is back on again. Broke up with my girlfriend too. lol Oh well. I'm a lot better off. Anyway, I'm going to school to be an electrician. Someone has to do it right? I've been learning a lot and I'll definitely do well I think. Anyway, I should probably start penpaling you. If I can ever get the time to actually sit down and right a letter. It's so much faster for me to type what I'm thinking about. Oh well, school should be done by the end of the month so maybe I can change that.
I'll catch ya later.
HIM


Okay. Anyone else smell something fishy? He he he! SERIOUSLY! I didn’t respond to the letter, but as I had never gotten a new cell phone or a new number he still had my info, and called me. He started out chatting like you normaly would with someone you had been friends with for a while, then it turned into “are you looking to settle down?” “You have always been so beautiful.”“are you happy in your relationship?” It took me a while to gently inform him that I was in NO WAY interested with him, but I would like to remain friends with him....after he got it through his thick skull that I was not on the market for him he decided to drop the bomb that his ex had cheated on him and possibly given him Hepititis C. HOLY FUCK! And what? If I did want to be with him, what, would he have forgotten to tell me the part where he has Hep C? WHAT THE FUCK? Again proving what a nice guy he is. Oh yeah! * rolls eyes* But I do want to stay friends with him if only to watch his life go up in flames. He he he. Seriously! He’s almost 30 and still lives with mommy and daddy. He’s never even TRIED to move out! He’s the sterieotypical looser that your mother warned you about. OH! He’s also an alocoholic. Nice mix, huh? I didn’t want my man to know about this because, well, why bother him? I’m not going anywhere? Why would I trade in a nice boy who gives me anything I want, at any time I want, for this jerk? Nah, I’m not gonna upset him that way. Also he showed me a picture of his ex. My thoughts are: .....HOLY CRAP! EVEN BEING FAT I AM A MILLION TIMES HOTTER THAN THAT CHICK!!!! HA HA HA HA..... Dude....Seriously? THAT was the best he could do!?!?!?! Wow!

Anyhow, today, for some odd reason I decided to talk to him. Durring the conversation I tried to explain to him all the different types of characters in japanese writing, and why they were different. He simply told me "you always study the weirdest stuff." EXCUSE THE FUCK OUTTA ME FORE BEING INTERESTED IN SOMETHING OTHER THAN BEER AND SEX! ARGH! And he still can't give a straight answer to a question. He always has to dance around it. The only reason he is in my life in the first place is because he was nice to me when my father died, and I transfixed all of my need for male affection to him. I don't know. I have friends, like you. Why do I need his drama anymore? Do you think it is wrong for me to hang on to see what else happens?

Write back soon.
Oof! I just wanted to tell you that I totally sympathize...the ex I mentioned above is growing into exactly the same person your ex is. Not to mention he's a skinhead now...AHH!! Not that I have anything against skinheads (of the non-Nazi genre, of course), but he is a downright BONEhead! Gross.

I had the father thing going on to...I've got me an absent, druggie, criminal, pervert of a sperm donor, and I chose a guy who was just like him. They say you either marry your father or the complete opposite (referring to heterosexual relationships, of course). I think I've learned my lesson, haha!

Honestly, the only thing that has worked for me is to stop communicating with him. I know it's totally tempting to hang on and savor that feeling of coming out on top (yeah, it's that good), but it's so much healthier to let go...and probably better for him, too.

Good job for getting the hell OUT of that relationship!

[Everlasting Blossom]

Oof! I just wanted to tell you that I totally sympathize...the ex I mentioned above is growing into exactly the same person your ex is. Not to mention he's a skinhead now...AHH!! Not that I have anything against skinheads (of the non-Nazi genre, of course), but he is a downright BONEhead! Gross.

I had the father thing going on to...I've got me an absent, druggie, criminal, pervert of a sperm donor, and I chose a guy who was just like him. They say you either marry your father or the complete opposite (referring to heterosexual relationships, of course). I think I've learned my lesson, haha!

Honestly, the only thing that has worked for me is to stop communicating with him. I know it's totally tempting to hang on and savor that feeling of coming out on top (yeah, it's that good), but it's so much healthier to let go...and probably better for him, too.

Good job for getting the hell OUT of that relationship!

Thanks.

I guess you are right.

[keloid.miruku]

I know I'm gravedigging for this thread but I feel like I need to get this off my chest:

So this is it.

Do you know how completely devastating it is to hear that 'you never meant it'?

It means that the happiest months of my life were built on a false foundation.
It means that the happiest I've been in a long time meant absolutely nothing.

By all means love should be dead.
I'm pretty sure it is.

~Sagi.

[Kamikaze_Jen]

thanks guys.. you don't got to read that but that been on my chest for a while and thank you wikipedia for teaching me about old Chinese and Manchuria dresses

No offense but that was slightly harsh. I respect you're feelings about this certain person but seriously, I felt it was worse then mine.
Have you worn her shoes yet?
Then again I've been more sensitive lately and I realize my false letter was a bit shallow and provoking too.

-Jen

[dootsie]

Dear You,
For four years, we have been dancing and skirting around each other. I've tried calling you "friend", but we know that's a lie. We're so much more, and yet so much less. I can't even hug you without aching to steal you away. So I don't touch you at all. And you can see that, yet I'm not sure you know what to make of it. I hug everyone else. I look in their eyes and smirk and laugh and horseplay. But with you? There has always been this canyon I dare not cross. Because, after all, what would I do once I got to the other side?
I am in love with you. Without bounds, without reason, I love you. I love the small drops of wit you throw into conversation just to see what reaction they might draw. I love that you stare off into space and then laugh for seemingly no reason, only to tell me you just thought of something that happened when you were three when I ask. I love all the contented smiles you give when you're half asleep and staying up just to entertain me. I love the perfect way I know your body would fit with mine if only I could get up the courage to wrap my arms around you.
But that's the trouble. It feels inappropriate to touch you, to bridge that gulf. It feels vulgar and it's terrifying to imagine that I might not be able to stop.
After all, you're with somebody else, and so am I.
So here we are, seperate and apart, yet always together. Here we are, clearly in love, yet the miles between us are centimeters to anybody looking. I just want to touch your hand, to hold it in mine, and see what comes of it. But we can't do that, and I guess that's okay.
There isn't time left to try. Now that it's all over, I guess there's nothing left to do but to say...
Goodbye, darling heart. You'll always be a part of me, and I know I'll be with you. I hope the future finds you well.
Less than three,
Me

[WimpyRen]

Ah! Dootsie- that made me cry :(
beautiful, really, wow

[dootsie]

Ah! Dootsie- that made me cry :(
beautiful, really, wow
Ah, don't cry! o___o
Have a cookie. :) Thank you so much. I'm blushing!

[WimpyRen]

mmm cookies! That really was beautifully written though.

[gluegungeisha]

mmm cookies! That really was beautifully written though.

Agreed...and I sympathize. o___o

[dootsie]

Thanks to you both.

I'm the queen of unrequited.

Which is alright. :)

[nekoxmarionette]

Let's give this a shot...


Dear Jonathan...

There's a lot I have been meaning to tell you. So much that my brain would just want to explode instead of my heart. I wish you were her and not there. I wish there when you were here. I wish you dead when you were with her. I feel horrible, I feel sad. There is so much I want to tell you.. but you just tell me to be quiet and sit there and be pretty. I'm tired of it Jonathan.. I'm tired of everything.. I'm so glad your far away right now. Because then you'll see what a load of s*** you have always been... I liked you... for so long. But I really was nothing huh..? But now that you threw yourself into the Navy... you tell me how much you love me... I hate you... so f******* much.... I hope you get thrown into the ocean... and just drown... ... drown deep down.... where no one will find you. Where jellyfish will sting you and sharks will eat your body.... and then a whale swallows it whole.

I just wished you treasured me more then all of them. More then any girl you have met. I don't know if I'll really leave with you to Australia when you come back... I think I'll be far away by the time you come back from Japan. I'm sorry... I'm a horrible girlfriend, huh? Yea... I really am horrible. -Sighs a bit.- Falling in love with the wrong guy like you. Was my mistake...

With much love and hate,
Clover


Wow...... o.O I really went a little out of hand with him and the ocean and stuff c.c;;